Gary Busey, blessed with brain damage from a motor cycle accident, is able to live his life completely in the present and once came up with an acronym for what fear really means “false evidence appearing real”.  I thought at the time it was a great and clever insight into the nature of this word most of us live our lives trying to conquer, in one way or another.  But over time I have come to realize that fear is not some shadowy demon I must focus my energy on slaying, and tried in my best way to transcend labels of being courageous or fearful.  There is so much more to life than this duality of fear or lack there of (be it love, liberation, whatever you take its opposite to be).

Fear at its worst is something that can overpower a person, cause them to fight, flee, or freeze, but at its best, it is something that accomplishes the exact same thing.  Sometimes we need to fight, sometimes we need to run away, and sometimes we just need to sit still, especially if our heads will be blown off by a potential mugger for moving.  Perhaps we can romantically think we’re immune to fear, but there are plenty of situations I would rather not be continually exposed to, in order to slowly condition the fear response out of me, and banish it from my very being.  Does that mean I will die without living a full life?  Maybe I should be afraid of dying without getting rid of my fear of lions.  In the meantime, though, that seems to be entertaining a fear of fear itself, and ultimately a case of fear I seldom feel, and don’t think will make too much of a difference to me, until I decide it’s necessary to conquer.

Until the day of dying without conquering my fear of lions becomes a prominent fear in my frontal lobe, I will not be too hard on myself.


About jaymacjack

A vessel of beliefs, opinions, words and actions.

Posted on August 17, 2013, in Jay, Journal, Meditation, Reflections and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

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