Ambiguity – Acknowledging the Gray
Acknowledging the Gray
Ambiguity……. the word itself seems uncertain and open to more than one interpretation.
Suffice to say this indefinite noun is a very precise description of the human experience. When we are young we make so many promises to the world about things we could never fully comprehend until we experience them. Later in life we find that those promises affect our ability to make certain decisions that have no clearly defined resolution.
We are raised in a system of duality where we are taught to see the world as good or bad, negative or positive, it’s considered black and white logic. Well life is not black and white, it’s gray a whole lot of gray. Perhaps life is just meant to help us understand that in order to live in peace with this world we have to be able to accept that most major decisions in life are steeped in ambiguity.
When it comes to other’s perceptions of me I hear optimist used fairly often. Normally this is just taken as a compliment regardless of its intent. To be an optimist does not mean ignoring the negative to me, it involves accepting the potential for the negative but understanding that there is an equivalent if not greater opportunity for the positive.
That being said sometimes you have to be able to look at particular crossroads in your lifetime and say there is no good or bad choice to make here. No right, no wrong. I must make a choice and then make peace with my decision so I may continue to grow. Don’t get me wrong, just like most other people I question my decisions after making them.
The point is limiting the time you allow yourself to speculate, then accepting that you made the best possible decision with all the information available at that time. But is that true? Yes, that is absolutely true. Your brain is wired to automatically deduce the best possible resolution, not to mention the being that is represented through its resolutions, is of the same construct as the very essence that created life.
I truly believe that we live in such ambiguity not through sadistic tinkering of some benevolent being, but through our own blind desire of perfection. Almost as though we have been tricked into believing that perfection is something that can not be attained without extreme circumstance. Leaving us in a constant state of want, over questioning each decision, and beating ourselves up for making mistakes.
The funny thing about trying to pursue perfection is that nobody achieves……. it ever. One of my favorite understandings of this is the concept of enlightenment. Enlightenment is possible, but the conscious pursuit of it immediately makes it unattainable. This basic principle is what keeps us from harmonious existence. As we strive to label all things effectively, we instantly create dissonance within our universe, by limiting the events of our lives to negative and positive.
Instead of looking at our lives to be judged perhaps we should see the fact that it is made of limitless potential and our ability to effectively navigate can not be measured by anyone other than ourselves. While taking into consideration that we are all part of a greater organism we can not fully comprehend., so trying to accurately determine the opinion of a objective essence is futile.
When I say life itself is ambiguous I don’t mean it in the all hope is lost context, nor the opposite, I simply mean life is up to your interpretation.
I prefer to interpret a peaceful and well rested life, I am going to bed.
As always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD.
THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU