Everything that has existed, lingers in the Eternity.
A State Undefined
“As if you could kill time without injuring eternity.”
Henry David Thoreau
We have all said it and if you have kids you have probably heard it, a lot.
But what is boredom?
You are not really angry and technically you are not sad though some would say that depression is quite boring. A simple observation would say that boredom is not having fun but honestly speaking that does not define the state, it only describes what it is not.
So what does it mean to be bored?
Well my dad always had a great saying,”Boredom is lack of purpose or direction”. As a teenager that really meant very little to me and even in my early to mid 20’s it only sounded like words. I have definitely wrestled with this concept quite a bit in my life, but I know I am not the only person on this planet that has felt this way. After some self observation and reflection I made a revision to the definition of boredom; the state of not appreciating the present due to not being able to clearly perceive the significance of your current actions or inaction and how they relate to your existence. A bit of a mouthful I’ll see if I can work a simplified version of that out some time.
You’re ungrateful…….. It sounds harsh but it’s not meant as a judgement, more of an objective observation. We all have our moments don’t worry it’s not just you.
The great thing about being human is that within the very essence of our existence survive innate instructions for evolution. With a little self appreciation you can find yourself sitting on the floor of your empty one bedroom apartment……..smiling. My thought being that if you can be in a situation such as that and be grateful then the possibilities should be damn near limitless.
Sometimes I get trapped inside my mind and let it tell me things like I should be achieving all the things of my dreams, or engage in the foolish endeavor of trying to compare my life’s accomplishments to another’s in an attempt at self validation. No matter who plays that game no one ever wins, for in the eyes the ego, contentment is dangerous.
I can say personally that most of the time when I’m bored it is because I feel helpless towards the “circumstance” of my life, probably because I am allowing myself to believe that I should be doing things other than what I currently am. Quite the ridiculous thought when you see it written, though that may be the nature of writing your thoughts, nonetheless a reflection worth considering. The funny thing about thinking you should be doing something different is that you are tricking yourself into believing that an external force has control over you a mostly autonomous being.
Perhaps you have legitimate reasons for your dissatisfaction with life maybe even a few that were actually beyond your realm of control. Are you willing to let those moments dictate your ability to the enjoy the present? Will you shackle your state of mind to the mechanisms of a false sense of self?
We all do it occasionally just some more often or for longer periods of time.
It’s actually a very justifiable course of action in life as we are bombarded with images of people “living” or catchy expressions telling you that you are not trying hard enough. These tools of mass distraction are designed to pull on our inability to define our existence within this world, they are created to resonate as true with your lower thought patterns as a way of causing psychological clutter and making you feel disconnected from the part of you that is linked to all other things in this life.
Simplicity vs Omniscience
It’s really not much of a contest, true omniscience does not exist within our plane of reality. The comparison is really just meant to illustrate a point would you prefer to have the ability to say you don’t know the future and the complete impact of all of your decisions or would you like to painstakingly doubt all of your choices for fear of their consequences.
The answer seems obvious to me.
I guess what I am trying to say is that we don’t really know if we were “supposed” to be professional athletes or homeless junkies, any more than if deciding to order delivery for dinner saved us from being hit by a drunk driver. So who are we to say that we shouldn’t be staying at home with our family on a Friday night or working overtime to get a loved one a gift?
Occasionally I am lucky enough to catch myself when I am in one of those moments with a brief glimpse a clarity, and realize there about just as many things I would prefer to be doing than not doing at this time. So I congratulate myself and resume doing what ever disgusting, menial, or monotonous thing I was just complaining about doing.
Acknowledging Your Freedom
Sometimes I forget that I have the choice to do something other than what I am doing or more importantly forget that I have the power to choose how I feel about it. One funny trend from my life is that I love helping people when they ask, but when they tell me to do it I instantly rebel, even when it is the exact same task. The premise of this concept is that as a person I don’t like doing something when I feel I have no choice about it, but when given a choice I will gladly comply.
I’m not really sure but it is a very consistent observation I have made in my life. Perhaps it is because I appreciate being able to exercise the freedom I have been fortunate enough to be granted. Maybe I’m just childish.
Regardless boredom is like making yourself into a victim and at that point you are surrendering your power or ability to the world around you instead of leveraging towards your peace of mind.
Let me wrap this is up with question.
Would you complain about being bored if you definitively knew it was leading to something amazing?
Thanks for tuning in and as always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD.
Acknowledging the Gray
Ambiguity……. the word itself seems uncertain and open to more than one interpretation.
Suffice to say this indefinite noun is a very precise description of the human experience. When we are young we make so many promises to the world about things we could never fully comprehend until we experience them. Later in life we find that those promises affect our ability to make certain decisions that have no clearly defined resolution.
We are raised in a system of duality where we are taught to see the world as good or bad, negative or positive, it’s considered black and white logic. Well life is not black and white, it’s gray a whole lot of gray. Perhaps life is just meant to help us understand that in order to live in peace with this world we have to be able to accept that most major decisions in life are steeped in ambiguity.
When it comes to other’s perceptions of me I hear optimist used fairly often. Normally this is just taken as a compliment regardless of its intent. To be an optimist does not mean ignoring the negative to me, it involves accepting the potential for the negative but understanding that there is an equivalent if not greater opportunity for the positive.
That being said sometimes you have to be able to look at particular crossroads in your lifetime and say there is no good or bad choice to make here. No right, no wrong. I must make a choice and then make peace with my decision so I may continue to grow. Don’t get me wrong, just like most other people I question my decisions after making them.
The point is limiting the time you allow yourself to speculate, then accepting that you made the best possible decision with all the information available at that time. But is that true? Yes, that is absolutely true. Your brain is wired to automatically deduce the best possible resolution, not to mention the being that is represented through its resolutions, is of the same construct as the very essence that created life.
I truly believe that we live in such ambiguity not through sadistic tinkering of some benevolent being, but through our own blind desire of perfection. Almost as though we have been tricked into believing that perfection is something that can not be attained without extreme circumstance. Leaving us in a constant state of want, over questioning each decision, and beating ourselves up for making mistakes.
The funny thing about trying to pursue perfection is that nobody achieves……. it ever. One of my favorite understandings of this is the concept of enlightenment. Enlightenment is possible, but the conscious pursuit of it immediately makes it unattainable. This basic principle is what keeps us from harmonious existence. As we strive to label all things effectively, we instantly create dissonance within our universe, by limiting the events of our lives to negative and positive.
Instead of looking at our lives to be judged perhaps we should see the fact that it is made of limitless potential and our ability to effectively navigate can not be measured by anyone other than ourselves. While taking into consideration that we are all part of a greater organism we can not fully comprehend., so trying to accurately determine the opinion of a objective essence is futile.
When I say life itself is ambiguous I don’t mean it in the all hope is lost context, nor the opposite, I simply mean life is up to your interpretation.
I prefer to interpret a peaceful and well rested life, I am going to bed.
As always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD.
THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU
The greatest pleasure of life is love.
A book must be the ax for the frozen sea within us.
Love does not dominate; it cultivates.
In all chaos there is a cosmos, in all disorder a secret order.
We cannot change anything until we accept it. Condemnation does not liberate, it oppresses.
The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.
Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.