One Man’s Revelation
Spring Has Sprung!
The birds are singing and wildflowers magically paint the landscape with a lush array of vibrant colors, well at least here in central Texas. It’s pretty much my favorite time of year in this state, a time when a fair skinned fellow such as myself can comfortably soak up the sun without having to slather on toxic chemicals in order to interact with normal sun tolerant people. Honestly most springs fly by unnoticed other than the vast seas of color that envelope the hillsides, commonly caught up in childlike exuberance of “doing cool shit”, I never took the time to reflect on the significance of this time of year. Growing up a preachers kid I was exposed to the religious importance of this holiday from a very young age, due to the physical and emotional abuse of my childhood my ability to clearly see the beauty of this time of year was blinded by anger and resentment. Gratefully I have had the opportunity to reflect on a lot of things lately one them including Easter.
The Winter of my Soul
The last couple of years in my life have been crazy to say the least, I found myself trapped in an emotional blizzard of depression, one that left my soul with cabin fever clawing at my heart. The details can be spared for the sake of my sanity and your time but lets just say being an idealistic romantic can cause someone like me to invest way too much time and energy into people who don’t share the same definition of love. After it was all said and done, I found myself alone again in what is currently one of the most challenging experiences of my adulthood, with nothing but bittersweet memories and broken hopes. In the last month of 2015 I decided to quit a “comfortable” job in order to complete my education in massage therapy, mainly because I knew the psychological importance of showing myself I can complete something. When I started that journey it was with the illusion of support and love from someone very dear to me, someone I thought I could share my imperfection with and someone I hoped would see that this as an integral part of getting myself prepared for our future together. Needless to say that person did not share the same feelings nor desires. I soon found myself in the midst of an emotional whirlwind, buried under a schedule of trying to balance two part time jobs, full time school and the occasional band practice frantically running from the feelings of rejection and failure that all too often accompany the loss of a romantic attachment.
Spring Break! Spring Cleaning?
For most musicians in Austin spring break really just means SXSW is going to make your life crazy for the next week or so, though this one was very unique for me as I had not been in school to appreciate this time of year for over a decade. With my week nights freed up in for the first time in months I finally had the chance to let my feelings catch up with me, something I was literally terrified of, fearing those feeling might halt my momentum. I knew I was in need of a serious emotional catharsis, one that might help me better navigate the turbulent waters of my mind. A trip perhaps? Not necessarily focusing on the destination but more on the chance to get a new perspective, a journey that would help me remember a part of myself I forgot. My internal house was in need of some serious spring cleaning, a chance to knock down the cobwebs of old thought patterns and wipe the dust away from my long neglected inner child. The radiant sun illuminating the state of my life, I was starting to see the emotional importance of this commonly dreaded responsibility.
Resurrection… Metaphorically Speaking
Of course the religious cornerstone of Easter revolves around the death and resurrection of one the most incredible physical manifestations this realm of existence has ever seen, the act itself shrouded in wonder and awe as it appeals to a part of our soul we know to be absolutely true yet we have no way to comprehend. Mysticism aside most people can see that this story is a great metaphor for the end of something, bringing along with it a new hopeful beginning. The truth is we must sometimes go through intense emotional or physical pain in order to be motivated enough to make certain changes that our lives need. Occasionally we need to kill our current self so we can become the person we were meant to be, so I did, I made my peace and began to lay my ego based thought process to rest with gratitude and respect. That being said the ego does not go down quietly, investigating the root cause of your “suffering” is a messy business one that can leave you exhausted and quite emotional. It may sound strange, but I can say I feel a new version of myself slowly breaking through, like blades of grass growing through the cracks of a sidewalk. Even more strange than that is the fact that this new version of myself comes with a feeling of familiarity like when you reconnect with an old friend.
A time of year that marks when the nights of winter are slowly giving way to the days of summer, leaving us in a brief window of solar and lunar balance. Then it clicked, our ancestors recognized this time of year as having incredible trans formative potential which is why so many different cultures have a spring celebration. With nature providing the perfect backdrop, its completely organic to feel that this time of year is a great opportunity for us to shed our less desirable aspects in order to allow new growth. This concept is illustrated through the story of the crucifixion and resurrection, the first part symbolizing the blood exchange meant to pay for our mistakes and the second part showing that we are born anew unbound by the limitations of our past. Relinquishing our attachment to the sins of our past enables us to continue growing in order to reach our highest possible potential. Various ancient cultures honored this with sacred rituals in order to acknowledge the lessons learned while encouraging the desire to continue learning. The equinox is a time of high energy that can be useful in purging our emotional trauma and propelling our spirits into the next chapter of our karmic journey.
So regardless of your spiritual beliefs this time of year is a unique culmination of spiritual sanctity, celestial alignment and seasonal transition that can be an incredible catalyst for change in your life. Whether it be physical, emotional, spiritual or all of them combined I hope you take this chance to achieve the evolution you desire.
Thanks for joining me on my journey and as always you are worth More Than Gold.
The Road Less Traveled
The road less traveled, an expression we have all heard and most of us have our own definition of what it means. To put this expression into context it is not only limited to destinations but also encompasses major life changes and personal development.
Where it all begins…
There you are, walking down the nice paved road of life observing the rules, reading all the signs, and flowing with traffic. Then it happens you accidentally stray off the beaten path, you suddenly disconnect from your distractions and recognize the immensity of your sense based experience known as life. Your world has changed, the possibilities are limitless and best of all your perspective is now beginning to reflect back the essence of curiosity. You now know there is more to life than what you could see from the safety of the masses, there is a beautiful world of creatures, plants, panoramic scenery, secret watering holes, and the list keeps going it’s all just waiting for your appreciation.
A new perspective.
The curtain has fallen, you can now see the strings attached and the hollow cardboard cut outs attempting to represent value in society. Like milk, your taste for the norm has soured, new cultures are causing the fermentation of your perception. You start to question the world around you looking and listening in new ways, kind of like a more mature return to infancy. Eventually you yearn for more than what that nice paved road can offer because you know where it leads. Driven by the urge to experience and grow, your innate purpose is now starting to evolve beyond the current circumstance and it pushes you to create a new environment for yourself.
Incoming reality check.
Trailblazing comes at its own cost, there are pitfalls, wrong turns, dead ends and even the dreaded backtracking, like a slap to the face, the reality of this new perspective has reared it’s ugly head. A wave of fear crashes into you and derails your train of dreams. You look back to that road of comfort and security in hopes of being able to forget all that you recently learned, only to find that it no longer fosters those feelings inside of you. Now what? You are thirsty and the only way to slake your thirst is wrought with peril. Avoidance is a weak tool against the outcry of your soul’s true desire and soon becomes inept at silencing that inner voice, so you gradually prepare yourself for the road ahead.
The Master Plan.
Determination sets in and you decide to make your thoughts a reality, a strategic approach to shaping your world. Looking at your ambitions and the best way to actualize them, a plan starts to form and your confidence slowly grows. An ancient primal instinct kicks in and you start evaluating your resources carefully organizing them by necessity and luxury trying to determine if they add value or detract. Your situation becomes more temporary by the day. As you feel more confident in your plan, you slowly let go of the little “problems” you were struggling with because ultimately you know worry is a squandered use of your resources. Preparations have been made, lists have been checked and you begin the bittersweet process of saying goodbye to your comfort and false sense of security.
Sentimental good byes aside you know the time has come for you to take that fancy plan of yours and put it to use. Truth is your plan sucks, don’t worry pretty much everyone else’s does too. There is no way you can account for half of the random shit that happens in life, much less when you have decided to put yourself outside of your current understanding in order to stimulate growth. With every mistake made you learn a little more, some times you might even laugh about it. Your ability to handle the unexpected surprises even you sometimes, but you know most of all it is due to something greater than you could ever comprehend. The interconnected nature of life slowly reveals itself to you like a flower in bloom illuminating all the vibrant colors, intricate patterns, and simple elegance.
Enjoying the ride.
There is no guarantee of a happy ending, nor any promise of “success” in this life these things can only be defined by you, as you continue to grow in experience. For most people that master plan is eventually put aside knowing now that the things that strategy was designed to accomplish came from a place of ignorance. To find peace in your journey is much more rewarding than any one accomplishment or destination, plus it makes the journey more enjoyable.
The road less traveled is less traveled for a reason, it’s not for everyone, it’s for you.
I don’t pretend to speak for everyone’s experience and I would never even try, but I would like to thank you for joining me on my journey and hope you can find something that relates to you on yours.
As always you are worth More Than Gold.
A Beast Run Rampant
Negligence, a fitting theme for my first blog post in a long time.
Looking at some of my previous posts I must warn that this one may not be quite so inspiring or motivational, but perhaps through my process of personal admittance you can find some solace in knowing that all humans have room to grow.
As of late my life has been swept up in the constant stimulation and sensory overload that is known for it’s vice like grip on modern society. With brief windows of clarity that seem to be serving as a way for my soul to take a breath while I unconsciously try to drown out my feelings. Truth be told those feelings are not the real problem, and I know this, they are just a symptom.
Why I am running from them?
The short answer is fear, we all have feelings in our life that occasionally bring out parts of our character we would like to believe don’t exist. Once we encounter these feelings we come to question our own integrity, sadly looking at our feelings as they were to be perceived by others around us and then reacting in shame. This faulty logic leads us to ignore the emotional road signs our true self is trying to provide in hopes of helping us correct the root cause of the feeling. Thus we continuously neglect our emotional well being, slowly numbing it out through acts of sensory stimulation that provide a short term feel good in place of a long term remedy we need.
Through this process we slowly sever our ties with our eternal source of joy and peace, and gradually transform into the walking dead, nothing more than zombies stumbling through life attempting to find sustenance from hollow corpses of temporary stimulation. This negligence creates an unquenchable thirst within us one that can only be slaked with a drink from direct connection with self, but the bitter taste of emotion hides the sweet water of understanding.
I would like to believe this is something most people experience in life, although I do also acknowledge that not every does. If you are like me and happen to be reading this at one of those breathing moments in life please know you are not alone, this thing called life is a shared experience. For this fact I am grateful, because being alone with your problems is possibly the worst thing that could happen, it never fails that when I sit alone with my “problems” my brain is not nearly as interested in resolving the cause of my feelings as it is in creating nifty tricks on how to avoid that feeling altogether. I guess I am fortunate enough to have a strong body mind and soul connection that eventually what I try to avoid in my head will slowly manifest itself in my body and of course physical pain can be a strong motivator.
I’m not sure I have a happy ending for this post, to be honest some times you have to face the ugly truth and allow those unpleasant feelings to exist, yes it can be scary but once you have the courage to feel those emotions you’ll find that your heart is trying to tell you something it considers very important for your overall well being in life. One bit of advice is don’t face those feelings alone reach out to family, friends or appropriate support groups/professionals. Just because you want to face those feelings doesn’t mean you have to let them beat you down, the people in your life are there for reason, not because they think you are some amazing super hero but because they appreciate you for the human you are and love you all the same.
Remember you are not alone and of course your are worth More Than Gold.
Thank you and I Love You,
A State Undefined
“As if you could kill time without injuring eternity.”
Henry David Thoreau
We have all said it and if you have kids you have probably heard it, a lot.
But what is boredom?
You are not really angry and technically you are not sad though some would say that depression is quite boring. A simple observation would say that boredom is not having fun but honestly speaking that does not define the state, it only describes what it is not.
So what does it mean to be bored?
Well my dad always had a great saying,”Boredom is lack of purpose or direction”. As a teenager that really meant very little to me and even in my early to mid 20’s it only sounded like words. I have definitely wrestled with this concept quite a bit in my life, but I know I am not the only person on this planet that has felt this way. After some self observation and reflection I made a revision to the definition of boredom; the state of not appreciating the present due to not being able to clearly perceive the significance of your current actions or inaction and how they relate to your existence. A bit of a mouthful I’ll see if I can work a simplified version of that out some time.
You’re ungrateful…….. It sounds harsh but it’s not meant as a judgement, more of an objective observation. We all have our moments don’t worry it’s not just you.
The great thing about being human is that within the very essence of our existence survive innate instructions for evolution. With a little self appreciation you can find yourself sitting on the floor of your empty one bedroom apartment……..smiling. My thought being that if you can be in a situation such as that and be grateful then the possibilities should be damn near limitless.
Sometimes I get trapped inside my mind and let it tell me things like I should be achieving all the things of my dreams, or engage in the foolish endeavor of trying to compare my life’s accomplishments to another’s in an attempt at self validation. No matter who plays that game no one ever wins, for in the eyes the ego, contentment is dangerous.
I can say personally that most of the time when I’m bored it is because I feel helpless towards the “circumstance” of my life, probably because I am allowing myself to believe that I should be doing things other than what I currently am. Quite the ridiculous thought when you see it written, though that may be the nature of writing your thoughts, nonetheless a reflection worth considering. The funny thing about thinking you should be doing something different is that you are tricking yourself into believing that an external force has control over you a mostly autonomous being.
Perhaps you have legitimate reasons for your dissatisfaction with life maybe even a few that were actually beyond your realm of control. Are you willing to let those moments dictate your ability to the enjoy the present? Will you shackle your state of mind to the mechanisms of a false sense of self?
We all do it occasionally just some more often or for longer periods of time.
It’s actually a very justifiable course of action in life as we are bombarded with images of people “living” or catchy expressions telling you that you are not trying hard enough. These tools of mass distraction are designed to pull on our inability to define our existence within this world, they are created to resonate as true with your lower thought patterns as a way of causing psychological clutter and making you feel disconnected from the part of you that is linked to all other things in this life.
Simplicity vs Omniscience
It’s really not much of a contest, true omniscience does not exist within our plane of reality. The comparison is really just meant to illustrate a point would you prefer to have the ability to say you don’t know the future and the complete impact of all of your decisions or would you like to painstakingly doubt all of your choices for fear of their consequences.
The answer seems obvious to me.
I guess what I am trying to say is that we don’t really know if we were “supposed” to be professional athletes or homeless junkies, any more than if deciding to order delivery for dinner saved us from being hit by a drunk driver. So who are we to say that we shouldn’t be staying at home with our family on a Friday night or working overtime to get a loved one a gift?
Occasionally I am lucky enough to catch myself when I am in one of those moments with a brief glimpse a clarity, and realize there about just as many things I would prefer to be doing than not doing at this time. So I congratulate myself and resume doing what ever disgusting, menial, or monotonous thing I was just complaining about doing.
Acknowledging Your Freedom
Sometimes I forget that I have the choice to do something other than what I am doing or more importantly forget that I have the power to choose how I feel about it. One funny trend from my life is that I love helping people when they ask, but when they tell me to do it I instantly rebel, even when it is the exact same task. The premise of this concept is that as a person I don’t like doing something when I feel I have no choice about it, but when given a choice I will gladly comply.
I’m not really sure but it is a very consistent observation I have made in my life. Perhaps it is because I appreciate being able to exercise the freedom I have been fortunate enough to be granted. Maybe I’m just childish.
Regardless boredom is like making yourself into a victim and at that point you are surrendering your power or ability to the world around you instead of leveraging towards your peace of mind.
Let me wrap this is up with question.
Would you complain about being bored if you definitively knew it was leading to something amazing?
Thanks for tuning in and as always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD.
The Fabric of Success
What makes a bouncy ball so fun?
It bounces back.
What about those ridiculous clowns you punch in the face?
They bounce back too!
Now these are great physical representations of a human characteristic that is admired and occasionally envied.
What I am talking about is resilience the subject of my entry for tonight.
There’s a common opinion I hear, something along the lines of it being easier for young people to bounce back from adversity.
To be fair I am still relatively young to some so my opinion is just that, but from how I see it age should have no difference on your ability to rebound.
Let me elaborate, if you are young it should be easy because you have an abundance of energy and even perhaps a slight ignorance. For the old your resilience only changes it’s source of origin in your case you have the experience of knowing that you have encountered things of this nature before. While hopefully the maturity to know that failure is not in making mistakes but more about letting those mistakes rob you of your peace and self love.
As far as success goes I will not pretend to be the end all resource on what success is, only because that is defined individually just as your sense of morality. Though my humble opinion is of one that believes success is not measured in dollars, material goods, friends, awards, societal contributions or even objectives achieved. My thoughts on success are that of simplicity, do you enjoy your current position in life? Can you sleep easy at night knowing that you are doing your best at living a life true to your values?
If you can wholeheartedly answer yes to both of those questions then you are in my book incredibly successful.
When I look at my life I can definitely say that there are some things I would like to change. Does that mean I don’t enjoy my current position in life? Not at all, it simply means that I am still growing just like most others.
How does that make sense? Honestly it may not always make sense, but through my own experience I have found in life you really only have two options, you can either enjoy the present moment or not. Of course there are some off the wall events you could ask along the lines of physical torture or other radical occurrences, to those questions I can only say stop trying to make things more difficult than they actually are. The word enjoy here is just another word for acceptance and appreciation for you as a person that way you can love yourself enough to know you don’t have to be perfect and there is no “destination” you have to arrive at.
As for the second question about living true to my values? I do my best to live a life of personal accountability, meaning, that I constantly question my own thoughts and feelings about my actions. If there is anything that I do which truly contradicts what I believe then I investigate my motives and adjust my actions accordingly. Most people do this all the time so I don’t particularly see this as a unique skill only one that I actively develop. You see the funny thing about our values is that they are evolving right along us, so our opinion on certain ideas or concepts is subject to change as our life does so frequently.
What does this have to do with resilience?
Great question! If you can learn to enjoy your present moment and admit that you are doing your best to uphold your personal values then those are the key components to self love and forgiveness. Those two ingredients are at the very core of resilience, as I said before it’s not about never making mistakes, it’s more about bouncing back after you do. When you love yourself and can forgive your own humanity then a mistake is just that a mis-take, so take another shot until you get the picture you want.
Let’s recap, success is defined in many ways but the best way to find your own success is through resilience. The foundation of resilience is self love and forgiveness. Self love and forgiveness are centered around allowing yourself to be human and make mistakes.
I’ll wrap this all up with a final question for you to ponder.
If success has varying definitions and resilience is about giving yourself the right to make mistakes, then is your definition of success preventing you from seeing the success that you already are?
Thanks for tuning in and as always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD.
Rebuilding the Foundation
Awfully quiet around here lately……….
I wish I had some amazing adventure that I could say was distracting me, honestly speaking that is not the case.
I must admit I have been avoiding my blog.
Funny thing about running from your problems is that you carry them with you, so when its all said and done you still have those problems and now you are tired.
Well I am tired, worn down, and this emotional exhaustion has even manifested itself into a physical illness within my body.
When I think of the original intent of my blog it was clearly defined as a positive resource for authentic human experience. Designed as a space for others to share their personal insights and anything that they thought would add value to other’s lives.
I had invited quite a few people to join me in this journey, as I decided to traverse the human spirit and redefine worth. It was received with much enthusiasm and initially a few people took me up on the offer. Then over time it became a new a individual creative outlet, one that allowed me to delve into the creative side of my mind with a new medium.
Was I disappointed? A little.
But not for anything other than my ego based sense of rejection saying that I had not done a good enough job.
Now I know that there is quite a bit of error in that thought process as someone else’s desire to participate in my personal journey is not a reflection of anything other than their desire to travel their own path.
What does this have to do with humility?
Well this blog was just one of many things that had “gone wrong” in my life over that last year or so.
I would prefer to not list all of my recent errors but lets just say that if one must fail in order to succeed then I should be well on my way to success lol.
“Humility is the solid foundation of all virtues.”
Perhaps my life was under serious reconstruction and I needed to set a new foundation of humility for my life to build upon. Or am I just a fool hearty youngster whose desire to comprehend the vast greatness of life was expressed through a series of brash decisions? Probably a bit of both.
Regardless the answer here I am, tired, sick and humbled.
Strange enough I am no longer afraid, nor am I bitter, because I know now that my heart is in control as my brain seems to have admitted it has not the ability to “fix” the current situation of my life and only through my sincere humility can I scrape the pieces of my life back together to start rebuilding.
The old expression of practice what you preach is ringing so loudly in my ears that I’ll be deaf to the voice of my ego for an indeterminable duration.
Have I learned my lesson? Not completely for if I did I would no longer need to live in this plane of existence.
So what did I learn?
A bunch of different things, to start I learned that personal desire does not constitute absolute reality, and trying to interpret the divine essence of life through the limited practice of risk taking can really leave one wanting.
Along with those lessons I also learned that because I am good at something does not mean I have to do it nor is it good for me. Judgement is not limited to negative perceptions of others it can include making positive assumptions as well.
Most importantly I learned that despite how much I consciously or unconsciously destroy my life I am always loved.
This is the most humbling thought of all, for all your false senses of security or ego based concepts of independence we all fall down some of us flat on our faces. The only thing that we can do is ask for help and get back to doing what we feel is correct.
So I decided to start here, if only for the sake of clearing the air, a sort of spring cleaning for my soul.
Now don’t worry some of this may sound negative and yes even people like me experience self inflicted pain, but I feel that this is a great way to start the healing process. I mean really what better way to continue the journey into authenticity then by revealing my own humanity to a bunch of “strangers”.
So take what you want from this entry and share it with others if you feel it resonates with you personally. I want to thank you for taking the time to read it, if there is anything you would like to hear my opinion on shoot me an email or just comment on this entry I would love to hear from you.
For now I will leave you with a question to ponder.
If arrogance blinds then what does humility allow us to see?
Thanks for sticking and remember you are all worth MORE THAN GOLD.
Acknowledging the Gray
Ambiguity……. the word itself seems uncertain and open to more than one interpretation.
Suffice to say this indefinite noun is a very precise description of the human experience. When we are young we make so many promises to the world about things we could never fully comprehend until we experience them. Later in life we find that those promises affect our ability to make certain decisions that have no clearly defined resolution.
We are raised in a system of duality where we are taught to see the world as good or bad, negative or positive, it’s considered black and white logic. Well life is not black and white, it’s gray a whole lot of gray. Perhaps life is just meant to help us understand that in order to live in peace with this world we have to be able to accept that most major decisions in life are steeped in ambiguity.
When it comes to other’s perceptions of me I hear optimist used fairly often. Normally this is just taken as a compliment regardless of its intent. To be an optimist does not mean ignoring the negative to me, it involves accepting the potential for the negative but understanding that there is an equivalent if not greater opportunity for the positive.
That being said sometimes you have to be able to look at particular crossroads in your lifetime and say there is no good or bad choice to make here. No right, no wrong. I must make a choice and then make peace with my decision so I may continue to grow. Don’t get me wrong, just like most other people I question my decisions after making them.
The point is limiting the time you allow yourself to speculate, then accepting that you made the best possible decision with all the information available at that time. But is that true? Yes, that is absolutely true. Your brain is wired to automatically deduce the best possible resolution, not to mention the being that is represented through its resolutions, is of the same construct as the very essence that created life.
I truly believe that we live in such ambiguity not through sadistic tinkering of some benevolent being, but through our own blind desire of perfection. Almost as though we have been tricked into believing that perfection is something that can not be attained without extreme circumstance. Leaving us in a constant state of want, over questioning each decision, and beating ourselves up for making mistakes.
The funny thing about trying to pursue perfection is that nobody achieves……. it ever. One of my favorite understandings of this is the concept of enlightenment. Enlightenment is possible, but the conscious pursuit of it immediately makes it unattainable. This basic principle is what keeps us from harmonious existence. As we strive to label all things effectively, we instantly create dissonance within our universe, by limiting the events of our lives to negative and positive.
Instead of looking at our lives to be judged perhaps we should see the fact that it is made of limitless potential and our ability to effectively navigate can not be measured by anyone other than ourselves. While taking into consideration that we are all part of a greater organism we can not fully comprehend., so trying to accurately determine the opinion of a objective essence is futile.
When I say life itself is ambiguous I don’t mean it in the all hope is lost context, nor the opposite, I simply mean life is up to your interpretation.
I prefer to interpret a peaceful and well rested life, I am going to bed.
As always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD.
THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU
A Mindful Practice
Manifesting, what does this mean?
According to Merriam-Webster it is defined as “readily perceived by the senses and especially by the sense of sight”
Honestly speaking when I hear the word manifest I think of a genie, you know the kind that live in old lamps, a mental image of items materializing in front of me seems to be my direct interpretation. Which of course is not exactly as we see described above
When I think about it a little deeper I realized that I had been confusing manifesting with wishing for magic. Now some people might have already had a clear definition of this word but something tells me I am not the only person to fall victim of this misinterpretation.
So what does it really mean to manifest your true intentions?
Well it is clear that it does not mean making the things you want in your life just magically appear.
My interpretation of this expression is that, to manifest your true intentions means fine tuning your mind to be hypersensitive to people, places and things that resonate harmoniously with the great essence that dwells within you.
What? Yeah I know hold on, Let me adjust my vernacular.
Manifesting your true intentions is like calibrating your mind and body so that they can notice all the things around you that make you feel at peace thus allowing you to act upon things that uplift your spirit.
I think that makes more sense…….I hope.
Why do people keep talking about it?
First off it just sounds so damn catchy right?
People are prone to repeat things that have a certain ring to them. Then there is the whole wishing for magic things that could be causing some of this as well.
Other than bogus “spiritual” leaders or new age philosophers having something new to sell you in their next book what is the importance of this practice?
It seems clear to me that becoming attuned to the things that help elevate your spirit is like magnetizing your life to naturally attract things that help you grow with appreciation.
When we look at the world at large we can say there is a growing percentage of people who are becoming more disconnected from their higher power, inner being or self. If I were to assert my observation on this situation then I would say it seems that quite a few people are in careers, fields of study, relationships, and locations that do not agree with what they truly want for their life.
Perhaps the collective consciousness is pushing towards practices that will put us back in touch with our true self and how to change the course of this ill fated journey known as the human experience.
Sounds like a bunch of psychobabble
Fair enough, but if you have gotten this far into the blog entry then it is safe to say you would like to have a little bit more of the things that make your soul feel at ease in your life.
I consider it equivalent to exercise or reading, except you don’t need anything other than a little bit of time and the desire to live a life that brings out your true potential. Personally I don’t see anything negative in wanting to consciously improve your life so that it reflects your inner most desires.
How does one manifest?
There are quite a few people out there that will sell you workshops or one on one training in this practice. By all means if you are interest in paying someone else to help you remember how to tap into your innate prosperity then that is your decision. Of course you might as well be purchasing your own flatulence in a jar because manifesting is something you do naturally.
The truth of the matter is we are all expert manifesters sometimes so good we end up getting buried under negativity and mindless garbage.
Policing Your Thoughts
Don’t worry this can easily be changed it simply requires you practice a habit I like to call “policing your thoughts” this doesn’t mean imposing your negative emotions from being picked on in high school on your thoughts. What it means is actively watching your thoughts and feelings to make sure that you are not focusing on the negative aspects of your life or projecting your fears into your foreseeable future.
Along with “policing your thoughts” you must learn to get in touch with things that resonate with your true essence. This is actually a lot easier than you would think because your body and mind are giving you cues as to what reflects your true intent. The real problem is you don’t know that you are missing these cues because they have been inadequately labeled your personal interests on average.
So steal a couple minutes from your day ask yourself questions such as “What do I want from life? How do i feel about my current situation? What are things I enjoy most about my existence?” Keep an eye out for negative thought processes such as doubt or unfounded skepticism. When you find yourself in that moment of extreme bliss stop for a second try to observe what you are doing so you can try to recreate it or foster a life that cultivates that feeling.
Thanks for tuning in and as always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD
THANK YOU and I LOVE
Because you are Amazing
This will probably be my last post for the year. No worries I don’t plan on quitting any time soon.
Around this time of year I like reflect on the things I got accomplished. With all the fuss and focus on next year or what you didn’t get accomplished I encourage you to take a different approach. The fact that you are alive to experience another orbital rotation of the sun should get you excited.
Some people will look at this year and say it was a bust while others will not want it to end, instead of focusing on the past and future let’s look at the year in it’s entirety and acknowledge our present. Hopefully you can avoid the typical distractions of what popular media will tell you to think of this year according to their list of happenings, and reflect more personally.
Was this a year where you made changes to your own life for the better?
Do you feel like the events that transpired this year helped you cultivate your life?
Would you be willing to admit that the hardships you endured this year only went to prove how incredibly strong you are?
Something tells me you can answer yes to at least two of these questions if not all three. I am fairly confident in this because you are of a species that naturally progresses and evolves regardless of its intent to do so. Strange thing about being human is that your adaptations and evolutionary advancements happen in such a natural way that they usually go unnoticed. Does this make them any less meaningful?
My philosophy on life has been a mixture of different sayings but one of the most consistently observed truths in my life is the importance of small natural change instead of drastic reactive change. This led me to coin a phrase, “When shooting for the stars, you adjust your trajectory in millimeters.”
Shoot for the stars? Indeed!
Are we not just celestial beings flying through time and space on our living spaceship? Whether we want to look at it in the quantum perspective or in a general material “reality” we are consistently measuring time and space then accounting for its expenditure or loss.
If you are an average american between the ages of 20 and 64 then you roughly drove 13,000 miles this year. You probably ate around 2000 pounds of food or spent 23 days on your cell phone. What’s the point? When you quantify the mundane aspects of your life they seem insignificant on a daily basis. When collectively measured over time they paint a much clearer picture of how much can be accomplished over a short period time with consistency.
Normally you wont be able to find statistics for the number of emotional growth spurts, psychological breakthroughs, habitual improvements and personal accomplishments for the average person in a year. These are changes that occur in your life and can only be measured by the people experiencing them.
Additionally there are so many simple habit changes that we make in our day to day affairs it’s only natural we completely overlook their impact on our life. When you live a life of fast paced mind numbing stimulation consistently bombarded with distractions it requires a conscious effort to appreciate the little things that occur and make this experience called life unique for all of us.
That’s why you should take some time at the end of this year and appreciate yourself. That’s right you are a time traveling bad ass. You have successfully navigated your way around the sun one more time all the while making your adaptations for survival with a natural grace and style that is commonly mistaken for an over simplification called living.
You can say 2013 was a good year or a bad year the choice is up to you, I encourage you to say it was another essential part of beautiful journey called life. Which I am personally grateful for getting the opportunity to enjoy and share with the ones I love.
As always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD.
THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU
This entry marks the final installment in my series on the word LOVE. If you missed out on the earlier installments please visit the links below.
This subject is one of great value to me and I will be writing about it more in the future but no longer in the context of descriptive inadequacy.
The final LOVE I will be discussing here is not just one type but an all-encompassing version that really facilitates all other forms of LOVE.
What kind of LOVE am I referring to?
Under the descriptive titles i provided in the past this is best summarized as agape, what I am really wanting to highlight though is the importance of this type of LOVE for yourself.
Our opinion of ourselves really shapes the way we see and interact with the world we live in. When you can’t find any reason to LOVE yourself then it is really hard for you to truly LOVE anyone else. Some people might try to argue this sentiment because they can think of so many people they care about more than themselves. What is truly meant by this is your ability to accept all their flaws and ugly truths you may not like.
When you can acknowledge your own imperfection then it makes the humanity of others much easier to accept and even appreciate. Until you learn to LOVE yourself just as you are without judging or condemning then you will naturally do the same for everything else in your life. I can say from my own experience that as long as I was judging my own place in life I was consistently stuck in the same position, stagnant and floundering.
Throughout my adult life I have consistently had a very low self-opinion, mainly because I thought that appreciating things about myself could be taken as arrogance. This really stems from dealing with having a few very important people in my past telling me they hate how cocky I am. How I was perceived by others was misconstrued when I was younger due to my self-confidence mixed with a negative attitude and overly critical perspective that created a persona of an arrogant punk.
After a couple of years of pushing some of the most beautiful people I had ever known out of my life, I decided to reflect upon what was going wrong. It took quite a bit of time for me to wrap my mind around the recurring theme in the lessons of my life. Eventually it sunk in, like the foot of an elephant on the wet soft earth. I had a terrible opinion of the most important person in my life….me.
Why does this matter?
Almost immediately after asking myself this question, it hit me. If I don’t LOVE myself enough to allow all of the abundant gifts life offers then there is no way I am going change the things in my life I don’t like. My ability and intelligence could only take me so far it would require some of that extraordinary magic called good fortune in order to really see my dreams come to fruition. Being a man of idealism and romantic notions means that I had to fully embrace the beautiful potential of living this kind of life, meaning I had to believe that I was worthy of a life beyond my own limited ability to see.
Over the last few years of my life I have made a conscious effort to confront myself whenever I hear a negative thought start to surface. I started to use an expression that really fit my philosophy, police your thoughts for they can rob you of your joy. This does not mean I deny my negative thoughts or try to hide them, it means I recognize them and investigate what they are really saying when they arise.
Once you start watching your mind it becomes very easy to LOVE yourself, because then you can address the root cause of your negative thoughts. Everyone on this planet really suffers from very similar issues and after realizing this you will naturally start to recognize the things you don’t like about others in you. The transformation of your opinions of others will gradually change to one of acceptance and LOVE for you will start to see all people as a reflection of you and not some foreign entity.
I’m not promising you will have all the same blessings as myself but I am willing to promise you will have your own unique experiences that are specifically reserved for you. When you are ready to LOVE yourself enough to accept the gifts of life then you will find that they start arriving in an abundance.
I really must clarify LOVE for oneself does not mean delusional denial of your faults or short comings but a kind acceptance of your humanity. To LOVE the self in this context is not ego stroking more like ego removal through a balanced approach of acknowledging and appreciating the being who resides beyond the “conscious” mind.
Let’s just summarize real quick, LOVE yourself, because you are worth it. Then you will start to LOVE others unconditionally and you will find peace in your life . The surest sign of a healthy self LOVE is the ability to graciously accept the gifts of life whether it be from a person directly or just a stroke of “luck”. The basic foundation for all forms of LOVE must start with agape of yourself.
As always you are worth MORE THAN GOLD.
THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU,